My Sweet, Sweet…

My Sweet, Sweet…had a lot of portraits that were very interesting for me. I did my observations with my family members and realized a lot of things that I hadn’t noticed the first time I had walked around by myself. Unfortunately I couldn’t take pictures that day so I got some of the pictures off of the internet.

The part of the showcase that was the most interesting to me was the sadistic photographs. These photographs were intense. One would look at these people when they were outside of their houses or bedrooms and they didn’t appear to be the way they were portrayed inside the bedroom. The photographs did a really great job at catching every aspect of normality and contrasting it with everything that was out of this world. I really did enjoy talking to my mom about it. She was very interested in every picture and wanted to analyze them all. There was definitely a complexity to every picture and I really did like how they were so different from the rest of the gallery.

One of my favorite parts of the gallery was the 3-D drawing of the woman laying on the bed looking at everybody that passed by her. She seemed so real. It was amazing to see how it seemed that one could go up and grab the blanket and take it from the bed or how it seemed like she would fall off the bed since the drawing was on the wall. This drawing reminds me of our self-portrait in that we had to make it believable and 3-Dimensional.

This also reminds me of our our self-portrait. I can see every shape that she was drawing to create this man.

Emory Museum

When I went to the Emory Museum showcase, I was very intrigued by all the Native American objects they had from ancient times in many Latin American countries like Costa Rica and Panama. Since I am from Panama I was curious to see how Native Americans lived. It was really interesting to see the unique way those Native Americans took their creativity to create something different. The Pedestal Plates were an example. These are elevated plates that have different designs on them. I’m not sure where they got their designs for those plates, but today they really do look a lot Panamanian to me. The Native Americans in Panama create things like these, and their designs are usually very pretty and very unique.

Pedestal Plates of Panama

The section on Costa Rica had a lot of interesting objects. One that caught my attention was the Jaguars on Vessels. These pieces were so creative. The detail that was put into it made it more impressive. The artist took his time to construct something that emphasized the origin of the object. The object even appears to be standing still but at the same time, it is capable of walking and shoot out vessels-in my imagination.

Jaguar on Vessel

The Mesoamerican art had something that sparked my interest. I don’t remember the name of it. What I liked about this well was that it looked so rustic but fancy at the same time. The man must be a portrayal of someone who is serving somebody else. I can’t really say that it’s a slave or a god that serves his people. His serious expression makes me think that he doesn’t really care about serving, he’s just doing his job.

Mesoamerican Art

The Roman Funerary Arts were very interesting. I couldn’t believe how much thought was put into creating a cinerary urn. They designed the urns with things that emphasized the after life-like the underworld. Once people died, their ashes were placed in there. Their names and their lives were written on the urn and then the urn was put in a cinerarium. The details in each urn reflect how majestic the Roman Empire truly was.

An urn that might allude to either the Underworld or the Palace of Pluto

The Egyptian art was the best part to me. I had never seen mummies. I liked that those mummy caskets were so structurally big and very fancy. Even though the years have passed and they’re decaying, one can still see how important this was to the ancient Egyptians. From my whole walk around this gallery, I realized how important death was for ancient Egyptians. They emphasized the Afterlife in everything that they do. They had a boat model that served to tell the story of people and what they did when they were alive. The boat replaced the drawings on the walls. It was put inside the tomb with the deceased person. One can see that some of the mummy caskets have more detail than others. This to me served to show which person was more important than the other. They had other things that protected the dead like “Anubis and the Four Sons of Horus.” They really did express the importance of life after death.

  

Boat Model

Anubis and the Four Sons of Horus

The art that blew my mind was the African art. It first started with “Mami Wata” which translates into “Mother of Water.” It was the first thing that I saw and I knew I was entering a different gallery. The sculpture of Mami Wata is very upright and she seems to have control over the snake that surrounds her body. She looks at ease and doesn’t look scared at all. Mami Wata is a spirit that is widely followed in African countries. She bestows good fortune and material wealth to her followers. I really thought that was interesting. I also liked to see the masks. The masks reflected how much interaction with earth these people had. They have many of the elements we find in earth and my guess is that they were made this way for the hunters to camouflage themselves from the animals and from their enemies. I think that what made me like this gallery was the fact that they didn’t focused so much on death. They focused on what it was like to live as a hunter or as a believer of something. It wasn’t so much about the Afterlife.

A Hunter's Shirt

Mami Wata

Medecine Vessel

Masks

My Time Completely Alone With My Self-Portrait

5/5/11

I came in at 2PM and left at 4PM and then I took a break to clear my mind and came back in at 8PM-12:40AM. I worked on my project and found that it’s really better for me to have time alone with my drawing. I don’t really feel pressured and I feel at ease.

I stayed for a while and worked on drawing the shapes. As I stepped back and looked at my drawing, I realized that I was getting somewhere.  I think that’s when it finally clicked. The main thing I needed from the beginning of this project was patience. I sat down and began drawing every shape I saw. I noticed the dark part above my lips, the lighter parts and the darker part of my eyes. Everything fell into place.

My finished product consisted of the biggest improvements I’ve had since the beginning the project.

My face looked smoother except for my glasses.

I really liked how I could look at my  drawing and see that it was my complexion. I look at my drawing and it has everything about my complexion. The same goes for when I looked at my classmates’ drawings. The way they had shaded in their drawing really showed their complexions and their eye colors.

I worked on my nose and was finally able to bring the bottom part up a little. I also made the space around the nose darker to add more value to it. I wanted to create that contrast that I saw as I looked in the mirror. The other part that I finally noticed was the part above my lips. I kept wondering how I could make the indented part that I saw above my lips. I really didn’t know what to do until I opened my eyes and realized that instead of naming the objects I was drawing, I needed to look closer and see that it was actually darker at the bent up part and that’s what made it seem indented.

My eyes were difficult to even visualize in the previous class, but they became a very interesting project. I started to close my mind to think about the objects like the pupil, and focus more on the shapes. I began to see so many intricate shapes that allowed me to draw my eyes better. My right eye was harder to draw than my left one. I think it’s because I had begun to lose my technique of drawing shapes and because I noticed that my right eye was different from the left eye.

My eye began to look like an eye

From this project I learned that I could do anything that deals with art, but I must have the patience to do so. I know that I’ve doubted myself many times in this art class, but when I finished each project, I was very proud of myself. There was always something that I learned about myself. It was a project that allowed me to see every aspect of my face. It might not be a perfect face, but it’s very mine. Everything that I drew into my drawing represented me. People look at it and then can see that it’s me. That created the perfection that I needed to see.

When Critique day came, I told my classmates that I wasn’t satisfied with my lips. I was told that maybe if I add more light around the lips then maybe I would come up with the shape I wanted them to be. My glasses also need to be less rectolinear because it makes my drawing look flat. That is something that I needed to do. It was hard for me to not visualize my glasses as linear, but I know that if I pay close attention next time, I will perform better. I really loved some of my classmates’ drawings. Two of them that were very nice were CeeCee’s and Kristen’s. They managed to get every aspect of their faces in their drawing and in the end their drawings looked so much like them.

Kristen

CeeCee's

More Improvements on My Self-Portrait

4/27

There's a lot more contrast in this picture. I just know that I still have to show how the left side is lighter than the right side. The lips are fuller now but the right side is what I'm having problems with.

I worked specifically on the lips. I incorporated the white parts that I saw. I tried not to draw just lines all over the lips. I tried to work more on the nose as well, but I was still not satisfied and didn’t find it believable. I didn’t work on my eyes because I wanted to work on the bottom part of my drawing.

There's actually a shape on the left side of the lips instead of just vertical white lines.


Improvements

4/25 Cont’d

I made some improvements on my drawing. With the help of my professor and classmates, I was able to see how drawing simply the shapes that I see on my face will allow me to create a better piece of work.

During class I worked very hard to fix the nose and to try to create the eyes. The eyes were difficult to draw because I was still very focused on outlining them instead of actually drawing the shapes. I didn’t fully understand that concept of drawing the shapes. I looked at my classmate’s eyes (Meghan) and I was really impressed by how she had done such a great job. My brain kept telling me that she had outlined her eyes because there was no way she could have done that by simply drawing small shapes.

I observed her technique and the main thing that I noticed was that Meghan had a lot of patience. She started from the brightest point on the nose and moved very slowly towards every other aspect of her face that she saw. On the other hand, I moved from one thing to the next without even finishing. I had to develop my own technique. So I went back to the brightest point on the nose and started from there again. I erased everything that I had drawn and decided to have more patience, but for some reason I lost that patience very quickly.

I did have a lot of improvements. I was able to draw a better nose even though I could tell there was something wrong with the bottom of it. It didn’t look like what I saw in the mirror. There was more contrast around the nose and the lips because of my dark skin. It was so much complex than what I was trying to make it.

The nose was smooth in some parts and not so smooth in some other parts. I fell into the trap of drawing lines and making it flat. Here I needed to make the outside of the nose darker so that I could show the contrast and make it more believable.

I also tried to work on my lips but I simply saw simple lines on the lips, which wasn’t the case. The lips actually had many shadows that made it more complex and I was simplifying it.

This is what I had at the end of the day:

Here I was simplifying the lips. I began to understand the technique to draw the nose but I didn't have it down just yet.


My Struggle With My Nose

4/25/11

Today I came to work on my portrait for about an hour before one of my classes. I worked a little on the nose, but my main focus was the lips.

I was getting frustrated because I was fighting to not draw the outline of the lips but I couldn’t. I decided to erase everything I had for it and began drawing a lot of lines to create the little crests I saw in my lips. My lips are very complicated. The top part of my lips is darker than the bottom part of my lips. With its darkness, the top part has even darker parts in it which are a lot of crests that are difficult to draw. The bottom lip has crests that are very light so they’re much easier.  The only thing is that I have no way to connect those white crests together to make the lips. It’s all about flow when drawing these drawings but I don’t see the flow in my drawings. I just see the lines that we are not supposed to draw because it makes our drawings look flat.

On the nose I decided to focus on the nostrils. It’s very difficult to create my nostrils so that they show the exact shape of my nose. What I realized is that the bottom of my nose’s shape is formed by the shape of the nostrils. My left nostril is smaller than the right nostril because of the way that I’m looking at the mirror. I have to work on that.

I decided to leave my drawing for the day. I know that being frustrated won’t get me anywhere so I will leave that for another day.


My First Day Drawing My Self-Portrait

4/20/11

Today we started our drawings. First we looked for our lightest spot on our noses and started from there. It was difficult for me not to outline my nose. Our objective was to look at our faces and see where there was to use value to create contrast between each part of our drawings. Our objective was not to outline but rather to draw the shapes we saw as we drew from the very bright shape we had created downwards. It was very difficult for me to do so because as Nell kept telling me, “It’s your left brain that keeps making you think of everything as simple.” What had me worried was the fact that I had to draw something as intricate as a self-portrait of myself. Since my professor showed us a finished product of what we would be working on, I was a bit worried that it would be very hard for me to draw it.

When I started just shading and not paying attention to lines and just simply shapes, I didn’t realize that I had created a nose. It wasn’t accurate, but it was definitely an accomplishment. I told my classmate Meghan that I was very proud of myself for creating this nose. I really had no idea that I had done so. The nose allowed me to realize how much contrast I had created by having so much value in my drawing. It was a nice experience.

This is the Song That Gets Me Going on my Self-Portrait

P!NK-Perfect

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that’s alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss knowing it’s all good, it didn’t slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Luck, I’m still around

Pretty pretty please, don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing
You’re perfect to me!

You’re so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you’ll make it!
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game
It’s enough! I’ve done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I’ve seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing

You’re perfect to me

The whole world’s scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they’re everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don’t get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty please!
Pretty pretty please, don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you’re nothing, you’re perfect to me
You’re perfect, you’re perfect!
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing
You’re perfect to me.

I Really Love This Collection!!!

Self-Portrait Project Darkening of Paper

4/19/11

Today I came in at around 7:35 and left like around 9. I colored my paper as dark as I could. It was difficult to make it so dark. I had to shade it over and over until I got it as dark as I did. I didn’t take a picture of my paper but the following picture is an example of what it looked like.

This isn't my paper but my paper was almost as dark as this.